Tuesday, May 5, 2020

White Flag

Its been 8 weeks since they closed the World.  8 weeks of no commuting into NYC to work.  8 weeks of my daughter finishing her final year of high school in her bedroom.  Zoom lessons.  Masks and 6 feet apart everywhere.  Boardwalks closed.  Women everywhere have long hair and nasty roots and who knows what kind of bush under their yoga pants.  Men have never had beautiful lawns.  Puzzles are a thing again.  Its like the 60s all over again- the 1860s!!

And I have tried to stay informed, but not overwhelmed.  There is never any cable news.  I cannot in good conscience watch one of Trump's briefings.  But I know what's going on out there.  Through it all things have remained fairly calm in my World.  We have a roof above us.  We can source and prepare foods.  And we have worked a bit, thankfully- although of late not so much.

But its kind of enough already.  

And listen, I am not one of those virus deniers.  I know at least 5 people who have gotten the virus.  Of those 5 or so they are all better now.  The shit exists, and is taking out several people.  For that there is no argument.  My work has taking me to several NYC hospitals and I am witness to several refrigerated morgues that were not parked there pre- pandemic.  

It pains me that our health system was so compromised in the front end.  Perhaps we will have a respite and be able to rebuild and replenish the embarrassment that was our preparedness.  What if this was a strain that attacked a younger demographic??  That is, ones that could have hung on longer.  What if the .005 percent dying was in their 20s or teens?  

After 8 weeks though it's time.  We may need to see how this ends up on OUR terms, please.

If we cannot maintain distance or come up with a "new normal" maybe we should be don't deserve to live.  If we fall into the same patterns immediately after having the past few months- are we worth saving?

People need to work.  People need to socialize.

Now, we are staring at a mental health crisis that could far surpass the toll Covid-19 takes.  Not to mention domestic abuse, drug and alcohol abuse, food abuse, etc...

Its trade off time, now.  

Of course the essential workers and front line health care folks need a break and deserve our thanks.  Opening shit certainly piles on to their (already overwhelmed) plate.  No one wants them home with their families and safe more than me.  But this should lead to a surge in vocations, right?  When we go to War the Government seizes on it to enlist soldiers.  The health care boom should happen now.  Let.  It.  Commence.  

Otherwise, we are all gonna lose our collective minds.  Maybe we all sign a waiver?  Let us loose and if we become a health care burden please shut us down.  If we get sick within first 3 months and are too far gone please exterminate.

Sweden hasn't distanced or shut down and their folks are doing ok.  I mean there is illness and such, but not egregious.  It's interesting.  Grant you, Scandinavian and pretty much every other Western country is healthier than us as a rule.  However, we are only making ourselves more vulnerable sitting around watching all the shows and eating all the chips...

Side note- As I'm listening to Deja Vu, Crosby, Stills, Nash and Young's masterwork, I remember that yesterday was May 4th- the day four students were killed at Kent State. Did you all listen to "Ohio" yesterday?   It was barely on any of my feeds.  They were clogged with Star Wars May the 4th bullshit.  Speaks to our priorities.  

We can't be trusted to heal ourselves at home.  We don't learn.  We struggle to retain.

Perhaps this is our final rehearsal.  Learn from our mistakes.  Make the necessary adjustments.  Love one another.  Accept one another.  Laugh more.  See art.  Value life over profit.  Surrender to your heart.  Listen to your gut.  

And let this act as halftime speech.  Get us the fuck back in the game!!!  

This isn't a rifle carrying lunatic at the State House either.

This is a calm, measured tone from someone who is willing to risk a little bit.  So I can go to work, and talk with a friend, eat a nice meal, take in a museum.  Without it we are all dying a little faster too.  Its not a virus, but its still taking a toll.

Maybe we are capable.  Maybe this is our chance to be leaders again.  One way to find out.

Knock Knock..